On June 4, the International Infertility Day, a disorder affects 17% of couples in our country. We have analyzed the possible causes and reviewed the most common assisted reproduction techniques and their costs.
But, How do you deal with it when infertility affects you in the first person?When do you want to be a mother but your dream moves away month after month? I share my story of struggle and despair in some moments. But, above all, a story of hope with a happy ending.
“You cannot have children in your life”
By chance, in a routine gynecological test I was discovered a uterine malformation and the gynecologist who treated me released me, point-blank, that “I could not have children in my life" Some words that remained engraved in the deepest of my soul.
I was still very young and I did not consider being a mother in the short term, but it was something that came into my life plan in the future and I could not imagine my life without children.
When my husband and I decided to look for a baby I found myself with the psychological pressure of that medical sentence so unfortunate, and to see how month after month our dream was moving away I was plunging into the pit of despair.
In Babies and more The 11 most frequently asked questions about infertility answered by an expertThree years it took me to get pregnant and that is a long time when something is yearned for with all the strength. During that time I read everything that fell into my hands about pregnancy and parenting, I visualized with tripita and I imagined what our parents life would be like.
Everything around me stopped making sense and my thoughts always revolved around the same theme. The question "Why me, with what I've always wanted to be a mother?" I was tormented every morning and felt that I was sinking into despair with each new month.
After the first year of search we decided to put ourselves in the hands of professionals and medical tests and hospital visits began. Hysterosalpingographs, hysteroscopy, vaginal, abdominal or 3D ultrasound, analytical of all kinds ...
Dozens of doubtful diagnoses and various medical opinions that they did not finish finding the cause of the problem. “Maybe infertility lies in uterine malformation”- some doctors told me.
They never knew how to diagnose me clearly if my malformation corresponded to a septum or bicorne. The only thing I knew was that this strange shape of my uterus also affected one of the tubes and neck.
And suddenly, one day, the miracle works
It was a time of great uncertainty and when I felt I had failed everyone, but when I thought everything was lost The smile and hope came back to my life.
Seeing the two stripes in the test was a huge surprise, but at the same time I was invaded by feeling of disbelief and panic. I didn't want to believe what I was seeing because I feared it was all a dream that would fade away without giving me just a truce.
But when the ultrasound confirmed it and that little heart showed me that it was pounding and clinging to life, then I started living again
The first part of pregnancy passed with some normality, although my uterine malformation forced me to rest since week 28 due to contractions and the threat of premature delivery that finally culminated in a caesarean section in week 37.
Explaining in words what I felt when I saw my son for the first time is impossible. But I will say that I deeply admired him for having realized a dream that had begun to fade long agoTwo years later, when we decided to go in search of a little brother, history repeated itself. This time I managed to get pregnant right away, but I lost it. One time. And another. And another one. Three gestational losses that brought the nightmare back into our lives. Three babies that they could never be because they left early…
In Babies and more The beautiful story of identical twins, who fought together against infertility and ended up sharing pregnancyNature, again, turned against me and medical tests revealed another problem. This time it was a disorder that affected blood clotting during pregnancy called thrombophilia.
My second baby arrived after a very complicated pregnancy both physically and psychologically. A pregnancy where controls, analytics and heparin injections were my day to day.
But when my child was born I understood that so much sacrifice had been worth it and her huge green eyes remind me every morning that there is always a rainbow behind every stormIStock photos
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